My mum always told me that, when I’ll be married, all my wounds will be cured. Now I am 29, have never thought of getting married, and am still and again living alone. As an individual I am confronting a job change, and now that I am alone; I think about taking one month off to do something that marks my life. Since I can. Since I can spend my energy on other things that are important to me and my life.
I moved away from the thought that you need to like somebody from the first moment on if you want to be with him. If you ever cross my way, don’t give me a first look and then move away. Give me a second glance and go on a journey with me.
If you decide to go with me, I will shift my energies back to you. As you will define my way.
Since I can and I will.
'If everyday would be a new, I wouldn't have the debts from yesterday.'
the heavy weight down in my stomach
your eyes that imbibe my organs and everything
in one second leaving a shell
my whole body magnetically drawn to you
How pathetic is this, a love in a moment, that leaves you empty for one whole night.
"If you look at your appearance,
you’ve got your curls from your grandfather,
or your mole on your neck is at the same place your mum had it.
Or you’ve got your father’s way of talking,
crinkling your lips by pronouncing o’s and u’s.
Everybody would tell you that you belong to them.
I have never got to know if I have the hands from my mother or from my father.
Maybe that’s why I don’t understand the matter of being a Christ or a Jew, or what society I am born in. I don’t belong to anybody.”
I am a rain drop,
enclosing colors, or facets,
honed like a diamond
watch me falling, twirling, graciously
losing weight in a storm, growing with the mass of clouds
powerless as a single, ruthless in many
splashing in your palms,
I seem as all the others.